Skip to main content

A New Shade of Green

I was talking to a friend of mine last night about being jealous of another person.  I recently noticed some beautiful compliments paid to a very sweet friend, well deserving of said compliments.  I was getting more and more frustrated, though, because I realized how jealous I was.  I kept thinking to myself, “Wow, I wish someone thought that of me” or “I wish I was more like them” and other things of that nature.

Before, if you had asked me if I was a jealous person, I would have said that was not one of my weaknesses.  I would have said that I want what other people have, but not that I wanted to take it from them, so that couldn’t be considered jealousy, right?  Unfortunately, I was mistaken.  Not only was I jealous of that person, but I was also deceiving myself into thinking I was better or more spiritually mature than I actually was. 

Recognizing that recent jealousy of my sweet friend has really made me aware of an attitude I never thought I had.  I’ve sometimes been a “why me?” person, and isn’t that just an attitude that stems from being jealous of others’ circumstances?  When others are successful with something which I have attempted and failed, I’ll often ask God why I am not being blessed in the same way.  Like, somehow bringing God into it makes it not jealousy.  Wow, I have been deluded!

The way to overcome that, I guess, is to be content in all circumstances and to be satisfied with the things God has uniquely given to me (looks, personality, etc).  Definitely something I need to work on!

Comments

  1. TrishaMarch 28, 2011 at 10:04 AM

    I,too, have been faced with jealousy when thinking I wasn't a jealous person. I think that it flares up from time to time to remind us that we are human and that we need to turn to God to help us through our lives and that we can't depend on ourselves to remain "good."

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

We're Doing It Scared

Here we are.  It's that first part of the roller coaster where you slowly climb up the huge hill.  You can see the crest at the top and it's exciting, but you're a little nervous, too.  This is our first time riding this rollercoaster and we expect lots of high highs and low lows, but we really don't know what to expect, ya know?  But here we are in the front seat.  We're almost to the very top and a whole new adventure awaits. Jake caught up to my foster parent training, so we both only have one in-person class, two webinars, and one doctor visit to go before our home study. All of this should be wrapped up in the next two weeks! There are really a lot of misconceptions about foster care, so I hope that taking y'all through the process with us will help to clear some things up.  One thing I wanted to address today is how foster care has been brought up a lot recently in the abortion debate.  It shows a HUGE misunderstanding about who is in foster ...
Post a Comment
Read more

A new perspective on church

I am 35 weeks pregnant right now.  Jake and I are so excited to welcome our first baby!  Pregnancy has been pretty easy.  The first trimester was hard because I spent about 5 weeks of it on the couch and nauseated constantly, but after that it's been smooth sailing for the most part.  I mean, there have been a few nuisances along the way, but nothing major.  My blood sugar was higher than my midwife liked, so I have been on a high-protein low-carb diet for the past 6 weeks.  And she really encouraged healthy eating the whole pregnancy, so before the new diet, I was already eating well.  Because of all that, I haven't gained much weight.  Yes, baby is growing well and will probably be a big baby anyway, but thankfully I won't have a ton of extra weight to lose once baby gets here.  I do have to keep reminding myself of that when I get tired of not having any sugar. :) One of the things that we want to do before the baby gets here is to find ...
Post a Comment
Read more

Adventures in Mommyhood: Our (very detailed) Birth Story

What a whirlwind it has been!  Baby girl is 2 months old now, and I am just now feeling like I have a few extra minutes in a day to get on the computer.  Being momma has changed my life completely... and becoming momma was such an awesome experience! My last bump pic - 5/12/2015 Towards the end of my pregnancy, Jake and I were anxiously waiting for the moment I would start having contractions.  We were planning a home birth.  We hired two doulas, we had taken a hypnobirthing class, I was seeing my midwife once a week, I was getting weekly chiropractic adjustments to make sure baby was in a good position - we were READY!  After a few days of very very mild contractions, I finally woke up on May 13th at about 2:30 in the morning with serious contractions.  They weren't very painful, but I could tell this was the real deal.  They were strong enough to wake me up, so I got up and waited through a few more contractions before I woke Jake up. ...
Post a Comment
Read more