Christian Hippie Foster Momma

Anyone need to lease a house in Irving?  My current tenants (who have been fabulous for the past almost-three years) are moving out on Saturday.  I had someone all lined up to take their place and I was pretty stinkin' excited about them, too.  Just seemed like really cool people.  Well, I'm sure they are still really cool people, but today (the day we were supposed to sign the lease and all that jazz) they let me know that they won't be able to do it. WAHHHHH!!  So, here I am, just chillin' in PANIC MODE. No, seriously, I can't even think straight at this point. So I think I'm gonna get some ads ready tonight.  And then eat all the chocolate I can find.  I don't especially like chocolate, but it just seems appropriate.

First of all, let me say that I really hope you read the title correctly and that you understand that I did not just tell people that I can't hold it when I have to pee.  Do not be confused. So, four months, eh?  It's been a while!  Tonight, while working on my skeleton of a website ( www.sarahofalltrades.com ) I thought, "hey, I can add a link to my blog!" So, I came on over here to my blog to get a little linky action going on, and... wow, I haven't said anything in four months.  Puh-thet-ic. Ya know what, though?  My life is not all that exciting... so I'll sum up.  In the past four months I have: made a bajillion pumpkin rolls, played the only ensemble role in a really campy musical, did my first stand-up comedy routine, laughed a lot, cried a lot, played a villian for a kid's superhero birthday party, made a tutu, wore a tutu, started taking ballet, applied for graduation, spent a whole weekend with six teenage girls, lost a few pounds via AdvoCar...

Well, I edited my last post after finding out that I give people too much benefit of doubt.  My brother called the other day to find out what happened and I was explaining how I didn't see any red flags this time, so that's why the whole thing scares me.  Then, I started to tell him about a few little things that made me uneasy, but I didn't really see them as flags.  I'm starting to realize, though, maybe that feeling in my gut is the red flag.  The moment I start to feel insecure - is that the point I need to say I'm done? About a month into dating this guy, someone used the word "boyfriend/girlfriend" about us and we hadn't used those terms  yet.  I kind of laughed and said, "So... are you my boyfriend now?"  What I envisioned to be a cutesy moment where we start using the title turned into a conversation that left me feeling uneasy about our relationship.  He spouted off things about how we needed to take it slow and I was so determined ...

So, in my previous post I talked about the guy who made my heart flutter.  Oh yes, he made it flutter an awful lot!!  And then... all of the sudden... he just wasn't into me.  It's interesting, I have the book "He's Just Not That Into You" as I am sure I have mentioned here before, and it really should be required reading material for girls who are dating.  Not everything in the book will line up with people's values, but the general concepts in the book are spot-on.  I pulled out that book about three weeks ago because I was having a weird gut feeling about the boy and wanted to see what the wise book said about my situation.  Seriously, that should be my first clue.  If I have to consult a book "He's Just Not That Into You" to determine what the guy is thinking, I should count that as good intuition and just start the healing process, right?  Well, the book was inconclusive - kind of - it was too early in my relationship to really tell if I sho...

I am doing theater again!  WOOHOO!!!  I honestly thought the day would never come, but after interpreting for Level Ground Arts' last production, Xanadu, I got an opportunity to actually be in the next show - A Samurai Nosferatu.  I am so excited to get back to my first passion - I didn't realize how much I had missed it!  This show is a bit weird and a bit creepy, so what better time do it but October!  Please come see the show!  It will be running every Friday and Saturday in October (yes, even on my birthday which I am slightly bummed about having to change my big plans for my first annual 29th birthday, but being on stage almost makes up for missing Randy Travis at the TX state fair). :) COME SEE IT!  Check out the link for more info... I'm so excited! :)

You know the saying "you never know what you had until it's gone."  Well, I have recently decided that you also don't know (or forget) what you're missing until you have it.  I have done a lot of dating... okay, not a ton  but I have had a few relationships in my life, some more serious than others, some just a few weeks long, some a few months, and a couple for a few years.  Those guys are all special people and each have unique qualities that attracted me to them, but it's like Bono sang so beautifully - "I still haven't found what I'm lookin' for." It's interesting, while I was in these relationships, there are behaviors and red flags that I was completely willing to ignore because I would think "he's such a good guy" or "he has a good heart and means well," when in reality, I deserved better.  For the past year or so, people in my life would ask me why I wasn't dating so-and-so and my response was alwa...

Just trying to get back in the habit... Absolutely no makeup on, but hey!  It's summer! :) Shirt - Target Skirt - Old Navy Shoes - DSW Happy Wednesday!